a|x is a great boyfriend. but if there’s one thing i have to pick on, it would be the fact that he and i share different views when it comes to gender roles. when he is convinced that a woman should do the domestic stuff, i strongly believe that if women today are expected to work, men should share the homely responsibilities too.
we had a stupid fight yesterday concerning that matter. i’ll spare you the details. but what i did, was the biggest no-no by throwing out the most forbidden words in a relationship :
“even He was better than you!“
i really didn’t mean it. i didn’t even know where those words came from, but there i said it. it felt like i just threw up on somebody’s new white carpet in public and i couldn’t afford to bring myself to say how sorry i was. incapable of handling the injured situation, i packed my bags and left; sobbing like a lost girl.
i thought i could abolish the decay we have by leaving. truth is, things aren’t that simple anymore. as the days and months passed by, he and i are building a stronger bond in our subconsciousness. i rang the door bell shamefully. i felt like a complete idiot. we both knew we wanted to laugh; his smile peaked through his lips, though i managed to seal mine perfectly air-tight.
he rubbed my head gently and held my hand. grasping each other’s embrace, i think we both agreed that even though we all have different cultures, backgrounds, and believes, at the end of the day it doesn’t hurt to let loose our reins to make someone we truly love, happy. and just like that, i was loved all over once again. i’m glad i never leave.