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8 Jan
2010

I can’t believe it.

After a relaxing 010110, I thought my 2010 would start off ez pz, but no.

I guess what I did was just a concrete lie to myself.

I thought I am fine, but I never was.

My mind kept saying “I am happy, I can do it, this year would be better“, but this is all just a crazy state-of-mine.

I am not okay. My body proved it to me.

My japan flag was usually raised on time – every 28 (27 or 29) days, but for the first time ever, I had TWO visits from aunty rose in a month – and it has to be the first month of this new year.

I was worried I might have cancer so I went online to read up and found out that it is NOT a myth – stress can really cause early/late periods. Retraced back on how I spent the week and confirmed that is true. I don’t sex, I don’t take pills, I don’t eat pineapples, I don’t like cold drinks – What else could it be if not stress?!

For the second time I have more than one (painless) ulcer in my mouth. Went to see a doctor before regarding this when it first happened; he said it’s the stress. )=

I think too much, I worry too much, I stress wayyyyy too much, it is a sickness! Thank god it is not contagious.

I can’t help it. How can I when I don’t even know I am over stressing myself?? I wouldn’t know if aunty rose didn’t give me this surprise visit. Though I have to say that I HATE periods, I guess this one happens for a reason.

I’ve been very busy at work. I find it hard to steal time and blog. Even uploading pictures is tough. Again, this brings me back to my dream to escape this 9-6 routine but I guess I’m stuck. </3

Having all that said, I guess it justifies why this post is gonna be accompanied by a simple speechless black & white pictures post.