Why do We Wait to Love.
Posted by Cindy Tey on November 7, 2008
Is it true when they say the world is the same anywhere? That people are the same. You can’t change them, but you can only change yourself. I think the “World” is actually divided into two- the City world, and the Country world. Yes, exactly like the Mouse story.
Being a country mouse, I’m so used to seeing teenage kids riding motorcycles without their helmets on their heads; the schoolboys with their shirts tuck-out, girls letting go of their chemically straightened hair, while the Malay boys and girls alike are always in their neatly ironed uniforms… I missed those scenes, ya?
If you’re on your way home in the bus, you see Astro satellites on wooden houses along parallel narrow roads. The aunties will be watching #333 so they will have the Hokkien dramas to share with their neighbors in the evening. The uncles will be having chit-chat sessions in kopitiams over kaya toasts and cold coffees without their ice cubes. Then at night, the whole family will have dinner together and summarizing their daily updated tales under faded lanterns from Chinese New Year every last years.
Unlike the country, in this lost city I’m in I see many (i mean so many) married or divorced men and women. =/ I’m still not used to this (ugly) scene (if i can call it), but I guess in time I will come to understand this culture.
In my country town, many “accidents” happened. Meaning… unwanted pregnancy. When I was 17, one of my best friend, *Eve’s YOUNGER sister aged 15, got pregnant with her ex-boyfriend’s son. She kept it as a secret for 3 months. A few months later, they simply got married. A year later, she gave birth to another son. But the thing is, this dad used the money he earned to buy those toy cars which uses real petrol; instead of his sons’ milk powder!!!
I went to visit this couple one day with Eve but the mum and first son happened to be sick. The second baby; which was about 1 year old was in the cradle and there’s no telephone in the cold AND dark EMPTY house. )))= I felt so sad and nothing but upset with the father who was obviously absent… They are still together as one until today, but he told my friend *Lucifer that he wishes he could still have fun.
Guys, please sarung your penis well. Your demon seeds will cause misery; when it’s not the right time.
Incidents like that do happen to the city mice, but I guess it’s a more different sense which; I’ve no right to comment on just YET. (still observing)
I actually wanted to talk about the differences between living in the city, and country. Don’t know how much you know me; but I tend to walk a biggggg round to hit my ONE point. And I never feel exhausted sharing thoughts and stories, but I on the other hand get exhausted worrying if you might think I’m so po ma. Hahaha… It’s true! I worry too much. It’s a sickness with no cure.
Flying my thoughts back to Tassie Land (obviously very country), I was this one very happy girl. I felt little, but my heart felt as wide as the sea. My hair was so long then….. I was really very chirpy and cheerful. I wouldn’t deny that I had haters, but I felt more loved; so much more than any where I’ve been to.
My dear Kin Wai, my real angel Felix, lovely, lovely Airene, Najib Sani the cutest president ever, Vaseist my MACHA’ & his good ol’ brown car he sometimes fetched me to Uni with… Kamini Lynette darling, Ain & Tracy so far yet so near… I can’t bear missing all these sweetest moments I once had in my decorated life like honey droplets onto the tip of my tongue, tingling the tip of my heart. I miss quivering for all that sweetness.
My darlings… darlingsss…..
Artsy people click betta togetha. Hahaha!!!
GIRL POWER!!!!! 
Kamini and her waitress friends @ Smokey Joe’s back then… (2007)
It wasn’t very long ago to be exact, but it definitely felt like its been 3 years away…
The CRAZY dance moves @ Kamini’s PINK room!
Tracy accessorized with ALL of our stuffs! hahahaha~ And that’s my faithful golden bag which; I brought to work TODAY! =D
Everywhere I go, there’ll bound to be people who hates me. It’s a fact I can’t hide. Something I’m so SO used to I sometimes feel I HAVE TO feel proud of it. But at any ground I placed my foot on, I’m (also) bound to find an angel out of a hundred friends. Sometimes more, never none. From the good times, to the bad times, you slowly grow with these people and the ones left in the end when you’re in the deepest well, is what I call a Friend.
SO when people say, “You so busy, so many FRIENDS… Nobody dates you meh???”
I know the total number of friends I have on F/B is deceiving, and I only know 2++ out of 2+++; but what is your definition of F.R.I.E.N.D.S? My “friends” are all divided and put into lists and I only go / hang out with a handful.
Why waste my your time and energy layaning people you don’t feel comfortable with? I tried mingling around and even forced myself to socialize, and I honestly find that very very tiring. Sitting down on the couch alone naked with my baby blanky, starring outside the window listening to Mia Palencia is so much more comfy. Sometimes, I’ll call a friend or two to come over, and we talk about the Big Questions. I like it like that. One at a time. I believe in knowing each person deeply and thoroughly before moving on to the next one.
I honestly don’t think I want to know if you think this is right or wrong. Because nobody taught or influenced me this; so I guess this is the real me I found. I want my FRIEND to feel lucky to have a friend like me, as much as I love to feel lucky to have him / her.
The Darling Group managed to have a gathering the other day. Kamini flew in from Singapore. Tracy from Sri Langka, Ain just came back from Australia, and we all met here where. I. am. …
In Ain’s car when the lights went Red ORANGE!!! Please don’t copy us. =P
A betta picture after a few takes. ^^
I was actually very sick that day. Cause I ate 12 CIKU(S) in 1 morning! =X I immediately got an awful as hell sorethroat, my bff F.L.U, and a slight fever. I almost gave up waiting but I stayed back in the office till 9pm for Ain to pick me up. It’s so so hard to meet GOOD friends from all over Earth, you know??? If only you could imagine how hard that is…
@ DELICIOUS BANGSAR
My HOT COCOA.
The BEST salad I’ve ordered SO FAR with lean chunky turkey meat leafed ova’ fresh crisp lettuce garnished with dainty CRANBERRIES!!
You don’t know me.
The FABULOUS Fish & Chips.
Gorgeous LADY Tracy!
Kamini loves Pinenuts!
More lovely pictures:
Sweet sweet melodies~~~
Apple crumble and… MUAHAHAHA!!! That awfully SINFUL damn thinggg I warn uuu~!
Coincidentally same color shirts! Semangat Sisterhood!! LOL
Sharing: yi ren yi ban, gan qing bu san. (one for everyone, feelings buey sua~ =/ Isn’t that like… NO translation at all?! Somebody help!!! :p)
The above was sharing, this is POSING. Cuz I was sick and I couldn’t eat that much… Apparently, chocolates and oven-baked stuffs are heaty, or maybe it’s a myth. I’m not sure. )))=
Miss Lynette & Miss JZ.
Tracy | JZ | Ain J | Kamini LYNETTE
I shall end this with a kiss. ^x^
Talk about sisterhood wey!
Gan qing bu san – feelings won't dissappear!
Yeah i know exactly how that feels..sometimes when u meet up ur old buddies they feel even closer than your family. only they understand how u feel, probably coz they themselves r going thru it.
Sometimes i consider teman-teman bersocialize as peers la.they're not really friends. more of contacts n associates.
So if you're feeling like ur pressured to keep all ur friends happy, fret not. it'll never happen and if it does, it's gona make u not happy. So bu yao guan ta la. Be happy =)
P.s. u crazy girl eat 12 ciku!
Cheers!
-Evo-evo – it's so hot u gota say it twice-
So hoi sam. =) i am going back tmrw! whee
goof life out there mate
Yea, it's so hard to find true friends nowadays. I stick with my besties and made a vow to go a place for holidays together once a year.
Best friends are hard to come by. (there's another sentence to it but then I forgotten)..nevertheless I hopw you get my message.
Stay happy and healthy!
Yes, we should know that we can find as many people to be our friends and probably consider them as best or close friends, but we must know who are our real true friends.Any friends can say that they are your good/great/best friends, but always remember that they can remove their mask and reveal their true faces that you've never known it b4.
True friends are the people that are always there for us and would never break the friendship.
But ofcourse, we must also cherish the ones around us.
law of physics,every actions has its equal and (opposits) reactions. When u want some actions u better know the reactions or consequences and are ready to accept them.. if not pls dun do it. Or at lease, protect urself and ur partner… its really irresponsible to have them pregnant or transmit diseases to them.. so if we really love our partner,we'd think of all these factors
hai,
I think my propose still have chance, as Cindy din say no. No news means good news.
Sometime, in life, doing the most stupid can be the most happy thing, do you all think so?
regards
jimmy
i would like to give some opinions.
I agree that is hard to get friend nowaday. Perhaps, defination of friend is very difficult to determine.
In my work, sometime, i really dunno who is my friend and who is not. Someone can be your friend for this minute, and you are not really sure of next second. Is that defination of friend have to come with "benifit", like if i chose to give "benifit" to you, then i am your friend.
Besides, is that a friend can lie to his friend? Perhaps, if we want to use set theory to define/to class if someone is your friend. Perhaps only fuzzy set can explain it.
Haha.. sorry is make you all blur blur, this is a explaination that one of my uni-mate that study in engineering always like to give..
Sorry ya, if this is too "cool" for you all.
regards
jimmy
lol…i think u misunderstood me in d previous comment…i wish u nothing but luck…though i do not think its d best way to propose, i certainly think its quite hilarious d way ur going about it…but wut i think shouldnt matter to u, cuz u should do ur best no matter wut…so GAMBATEH!!
back to topic: its hard nowadays to know who true friends are…especially when ur doing well in life, many ppl seem to juz wanna be ur friend…but its only when things get bad that ur true friends really show.. im blessed in d fact that things used to be really hard for me, n d friends that were with me then, are still with me now…i hope everyone out there has as many true friends as i do so that nothing in this world can bring u down… take care all…
Dear stephan,
Thanks for your wish.
Can i have more people wish me good luck?
to jimmy,
I agree with stephen that I too find it hillarious the way you're going about for quite a long time with your proposal. But hey… I can't judge ppl's action. They wanna be weird..go for it. So I'll just wish u luck…there's no good or bad luck here, no offence pal.
johnny tai,
Thanks.
jimmy,it's either u are just plain kidding around with those proposals or if u are dead serious about it then i think u are a freaking psyco with superimposed lunatism!!!
and evo..u are damn "yuk mah" man when u are trying so hard to write/speak like cindy… gosh!
demon seeds? Er-hem…That's the Seed of Life, alright! =P
Sorry, I need to defend the pride of the male species since I'm a "guy" myself.
I don't think people hate you, it's just that they fear your outgoing-ness. We live in a world where people fear things they don't understand. Most of them will never try to understand…If you get me.
Nights, don't think too much, you might lose your sanity =D
you'll be fine!! =)
hurley, joshuaongys
Thanks…
well, there is nothing wrong to propose with someone you like. Worse and the worse case, i will get rejected in a very bad manner. Since i feel i have prepare for the worse, why dun i juz go ahead, right?
About "yuk ma" and guy pride, i think is not really a problem. everyguy can yukma with the gal he like. A man pride come from resposibilities, courage and respect. Not that i say something "yukma" i have no pride.
Anyway, thanks..
To cindy,
Marry me please.
rofl…stephen, yeah….this is getting too hilarious. Cheezy~
EVo! hahaha… so hot u gotta say it twice?! =ppp
Zi Sheng u r back?! O.o
dear axiao, how did the vow go? hopefully the words are being transform to action too~
i think jimmy is pulling a joke here… no serious issues yea? hahaha!!!
SRI LANKA oso u cannot spell.. so ignorant la u.
adkfhwtf, busy la~ no tmie for slpelnig n garmmar chcek.
Cindy dear…. i know what you mean..we had such good times in tassie right? I miss those days and i miss you!!! hope things are treating you well… if anything just call me okay?
*hugs*
ok jom dating!
Awwww, thats such a sweeeet post!!
seems like you had a great time @ tassy. Should visit Aus again, drop by Sydney this time.lol
Btw, get well soon love.:D
Dear Cindy,
Well, when i proposed for the first time, i juz feel like want to do something fool. In life, is good to be fool for a while and make some wrong decisions.
I use to make right decision, in my carrer, study and so on, but, wat the meaning of that?
CIndy, why dun u juz agree and assume that as a "fool decision"? Perhaps it may be a good ending as well.
that's the craziest & the silliest thing I've ever heard =___=. You seriously have watched too many movies.
To johnny tai,
Perhaps you are right.
bu san. (one for everyone, feelings buey sua~ =/ Isn't that like… NO translation at all?! Somebody help!!! :p)
"feeling won't disapear" is not so good translated.
it should be: friendship forever.
excuses