My Quantum of Solace.
2008
Here comes my last Perhentian post.
My IKEA clock shows 1.32PM now. I’m lonely. A piece of me is sitting on this cold, hard floor with my feet on the carpet. Sitting at the hall in front of the blank TV screen, I’d rather look out my corridor. It is not impossible for yesterdays’ sad memories to be played on this black box; on this channel only I can see.
It is hard to not avoid either. Every part of my house is decorated with frames and pictures of us. They easily travel me back to that place we first met… that war-torn country town; so different from this concrete pile of mess I’ve no choice but to live in. I only want to go back there to yesterday. The past could only hurt me that much.
I guess this is the good thing about blogging. We can travel from one world to another for FREE! (:
Back to the island; NO flying fees OR even tax needed, here we are…
If only transporting the body would be that easy… but I guess the level of appreciation among people would degrade then…..
Some shots with Tim tai kor:
Ha ha ha ha…. I have no idea what was happening. =P
Flags and Posts:
Here’s a simple sentence I know you think you understand but you’ll never. I actually forgot how to smile when I was there for 5 days. I’ve FORGOTTEN HOW TO SMILE! And I’m truly surprised how I got this shot! Perhaps it’s the magic hat I got from this island. ^^
At the dive center, “Sea Horse Diver”:
Those were the days…..
And if I were to work & live there forev? I’ll work as a… Fish Book Guider!!! lol
Possible~
Sailing the way back alone:
I left Perhentian alone by myself. As heavy as my heart felt and all those bullshit words I could’ve used to show how much I missed the island, why don’t I say… I actually bumped into 2 really nice people in the boat I was in?! hahaha!!!
Herbert Yap and his friend. ^^
Herbert fetched me to the airport, together with a German diver and her roommate. They were heading to Thailand by the night bus; which the tickets they haven’t bought, and I was heading to YOU-KNOW-WHERE (WHERE ELSE COULD IT BE) with my printed receipt in my hands; but still worrying I would MISS THE FLIGHT.
For a good couple of minutes, I wondered: Why Asians have less courage to leave what their parents think is BEST for them, instead of exploring the World?
Our parents give us life and that life is Ours. So why do we live doing something we don’t want to? The world is so big and there’s so much to explore; why are we standing here static doing the same old damn bloody thing every day, every year? How old are you now?? How much have you seen???
Sometimes, it’s really not about the Money. I’m sure this German diver I know just identified what she wants to do, and just does it good. Now she’s traveling all over the Planet; & what about ME. I don’t have that courage, but aren’t we BOTH humans too? )))))))))):
It’s 2.11 PM now on a Sunday afternoon and the rain is slowly subsiding… While I’m missing the flight perhaps I should have missed forever.
yeah
November 9, 2008 at 6:51 am
lonely? u need a bf then. a permenent wan… not being with guys that u are fond with wall the time coz then u'll be sending signals all over the place and in the end its u that have to receive these signals back coz the receiver is with u= ??headache!!?
yeah
November 9, 2008 at 6:52 am
i think i sound like an old man!!
enricoooo
November 9, 2008 at 7:33 am
life is always not smooth as we hope, just try to get used to it, and accept it.
dream, we can dream for our "better" life.
bring your smile always.
michaelkon
November 9, 2008 at 8:04 am
up and down…life …hard for me here too…lol
Zi Sheng
November 9, 2008 at 4:39 pm
MALAYSIA IS SUPERBLY AMAZING.
:D:D:D but the weather is humid.
KY
November 10, 2008 at 1:22 am
argh, I need an island trip that isn't Penang!
OK maybe I need to go to Penang too
Johnny Tai
November 10, 2008 at 1:39 am
*sob* I missed the clear blue sea =___=
sweatlee
November 10, 2008 at 1:51 am
your camera damn good! and don't emo ok
DandyShowyDressy
November 10, 2008 at 4:07 am
don't feel lonely dear
we have all the clothes you need!
hahaha this might not be the perfect place to advertise, but we're just trying our luck (= because we love the way u dress!
Vanquish
November 10, 2008 at 7:27 am
No worries! Hey,when everything goes down the drain, there's always us around. Will maybe not me but….you get the picture.
Aaron
November 10, 2008 at 7:52 am
How to get the money out of the system so i have courage to explore other places, instead of doing what i don't like to do, this question pop out when im boring doing the same dam old job. i want to go to US to visit my brother, go to japan to visit my step parents, i want to go to hk to meet my stewardess friend there. sigh, stil.. im just sitting here in the boring office, doing nothing but to type out what my mind is thinking right now. sigh…
Jade Z
November 10, 2008 at 8:37 am
but KY, when was the last time u went Penang? & now i know WHYYY u so pandai cari makan! lolz~
dear sweatlee, my camera ok nia ler… bt 10Q!
dear dandyshowydressy, ok.. good luck!!! haha
Jade Z
November 10, 2008 at 8:41 am
dear Vanquish, thank you.. but y maybe not u too? )=
dear Aaron, it's all about takin the 1st step. i dont know u or where u cm from; i dont know how 2 help u! welcome to the club… sighz~
Vanquish
November 10, 2008 at 10:29 am
Oh! Would love to be around you all but I will be in KL only once in a few months. So literally I cant be around you…..well,most of the time anyway. Be with you in spirit though.
jimmy
November 10, 2008 at 2:45 pm
the beach is nice + my sexy cindy.
haha.. i try to be silly again.
Anyway, i will be serios after this. To all the reader, i think i can assume Cindy has rejected my proposal.
Sad..
uncle guna
November 10, 2008 at 3:16 pm
the world is out there for you to discover!
be brave! once you're not afraid to fall – you start to fly!
Zi Sheng
November 11, 2008 at 1:24 am
I WANNA DIE DE LA. SICK ALREADY. AAAAAAH STUPID WEATHER
Johnny Tai
November 11, 2008 at 6:25 am
WE should all gather together and have a mission to travel around the world and experience the great adventrure!!
Shalini
November 11, 2008 at 9:48 am
Just wondering why you wear such a thick layer of make up. I mean, you wear way too much of it ….it's really obvious especially with your close-ups. Just wondering if there has ever been a picture posted with you wearing ZERO make-up.
Shalini
November 11, 2008 at 9:49 am
And you should stop making those blow-job faces
Shalini
November 11, 2008 at 9:55 am
YOU FORGOT HOW TO SMILE?! you were smiling in every single bloody picture in this post man so wtf!?!?!?!?
suz
November 11, 2008 at 3:03 pm
there's a time for everything, cindy. good times will come again =)
Jade Z
November 11, 2008 at 4:36 pm
dear Vanquish, spirit?!?!? O.o so khua cheong mehhh~
dear jimmy, don't play play ehh… siapa nih? u're definitely gettin famous like that. maybe u should start a blog too. lol!
thanks, guna.
dear Shalini, i'm happy u r one girl that dares to voice out her piece of mind. However, when it comes to MY blog, i didn't ask for your opinion on ME. no none will think u r dumb for not saying pleasant things. wtf u? =P
dear Suz, i believe so too. just got (a bit) lost sometimes… (((=
Anonymous
November 28, 2008 at 5:09 am
your nose is damn big