PrOpEr but Broken.
2008
I felt so sorry.
Sorry to my parents -I didn’t get to spend much time with them when I’m at home. Instead, I’m still sitting here facing this bloody grey laptop with connection crawling as slow as a bloody snail.
My HTC pda is still at the ‘hospital’. It let me down after I showered it with unconditional love and affection for 4 months. So I came home to country, ransacked my drawers, and found my old Motorola L6; all glittered up with cheap fake pink and white crystals. I checked my inbox.
I couldn’t help feeling even more sorry to all the people whose messages I never got to reply. Airene, Audrey, Oliver’s… All of them who sayang me most. What have I done?! Thank God I didn’t reply any of those fair-weather friends’ either; or I can’t sleep tonight.
So I replied them all; some with a “Sorry” note in the beginning, some at the end of the message. I even SMSed those I lost touch with, but no one replied back.
TWO days BEFORE I entered Malaysian Dreamgirl, I broke up with my Chinese Australian boyfriend. I don’t want to get into how hard it was, especially for me, during that period, but one thing for sure was this thing that I kept on getting. -My Australian Accent. Sounds like a DISEASE, doesn’t it???
They, hated me “and” it, but they loved watching me “with” it. Perhaps it’s like AIDS and sex. I don’t know.
But the truth is, I still can’t differentiate an AUSTRALIAN accent, and an AMERICAN accent until TODAY!!!!! I swear I can’t. So tell me, how was I to fake it.
Because that doesn’t make anyone who hates me change their fucking mind to like me anyway, righttt??? So WHY DO IT.
And when in the world have I EVER said that MY English, is GOOD. WHEN???
NOBODY has to have “good English” in order to blog. Most Americans couldn’t even point out where New York is on the map, does that mean they have to live in Greenland? Can you point to ME where Labis or CHA’AH is, in a Malaysian map?
You might have big brains, but your brains are as small as your balls or tits!
It’s time to STOP feeling SORRY.
ENGLISH TEACHER
WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD SPEAK ENGLISH TO;
& I LEARNED SPEAKING ENGLISH BY
WATCHING “F.R.I.E.N.D.S“,
& READING ESSAY BOOKS TO THE MIRROR!
I should be proud to be able to speak English in a city like K.L today.
To all Chinese bloggers out there who blogs in Mandarin,
Do not be afraid to blog in this foreign language, even if you are not good at it.
You LEARN from mistakes, and only those cowards who are AFRAID to FALL; are glued to where they are, for ever because their egos are bigger than their thick faces!
SO I WTRIE LKIE TIHS & I STLIL GTE CA$H.
YIIIEEUUW???
Mic C
October 4, 2008 at 11:15 am
yuo gte maney from bolgging? veli guat. soli my "london" no eh-sai.
electronicfly
October 4, 2008 at 11:57 am
Australian slang? What slang? And you don't have to sound Malaysian to be Malaysian. Ada di minda, ada di hati, cukup la.
hanibunny
October 4, 2008 at 2:22 pm
i *teach* english but I make heaps of mistakes too. so long we are willing to learn from them
keep writing, girl! you are already good, do more of it and you'll be great 
yeah
October 4, 2008 at 2:59 pm
the slang thingy was the past, honestly, a lot of malaysians speak with some sort of slang also what.. even fiqa spoke with a slang but no one critised her during the MDG period.i guess everyone hated THE you in that show!!!! ahahahha..
But it's all over now u knw. I mean, u have got all of us to think twice about ur personality after reading ur blog.
u are real and not a faker ler.. u are just u!! hahaha..a dramatic women who also likes to post scandalous pics occasionally!! hahahaha…kidding yah!
keep up the good work k!
johnny tai
October 4, 2008 at 3:15 pm
it's not a compulsory to be able to speak fluent English with an add of cool foreign slang. Speaking like the way you speak shows who you are as Cindy Tey, not someone else.
"People can speak in beautiful languages, but it doesn't always gives them an 'A'. It just sounds nice & intelligent but not always that it shows their characteristics"
You speak/write whats in your mind and what you want to show us,telling us your story…and that's what matters most in PINK LABEL blog.That is why we always come here to read your blog,babe.
yanny
October 4, 2008 at 3:20 pm
well, i think it's ok to speak with good english.. it's hard to find that now in malaysia… (sad to say), so yeah, be proud of it! btw, it's aussie/ american "accent" not "slang"… well, many malaysians tend to get that wrong. slang is used more for the kind of words you use, not how you pronounce your words. ciao! =)
Laine
October 4, 2008 at 5:07 pm
Are you talking about SLANG or ACCENT?! Who are you to comment when you can't even differentiate the two? Either way, you definitely do NOT speak with an Aussie accent or slang. This is coming from an Aussie Chinese!
Jade Z
October 4, 2008 at 6:08 pm
Mic C! hahaha! eh sai, eh sai. ;ppp
dear electronicfly, i'm even starting to think takde di hati ALSO nvm.
Thanks, hanibunny. Love your support!!!
dear yeah, i don't disagree with u. but somehow this issue reappeared again & since i got a bit frustrated, i typed this out and posted it without thinking twice. had to let this out anyywayyy… ((:
dear johnny tai, got what u mean of coz. but this was what i realized alrite; that i am subconsciously detaching what i 'learned' which are not bad things. i think i forgot to add that:
I AM FROM A SMALL TOWN WHERE MY ENGLISH TEACHER WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD SPEAK ENGLISH TO; & I LEARNED SPEAKING ENGLISH BY WATCHING "F.R.I.E.N.D.S", & READING ESSAY BOOKS TO THE MIRROR!
i think i should get a credit for that.
hey yanny, thank you. will change that in a bit. thanks!
dear Laine, well THANKS a HELLL LOT; cuz i definitely DON'T THINK I SPEAK WITH AN ACCENT! just speak the way i do & people said it was OZ; i don't get it either.
racoon
October 4, 2008 at 6:30 pm
screw them la…my company made it compulsary for ALL of us to attend English classes all bcoz some "people" insist on using "lah", "lor" and etc in their sentences when they know perfectly well tht it irks the hell out of the boss…
See the mess it gets ppl into for speaking powderful engrish??
p/s: boss is an expatriate btw….
chessgal
October 4, 2008 at 7:14 pm
hey girl,
just curious why is ur blog address jadezheng when ur name is cindy tey?? initially i thought i got the wrong link from my friend.
btw, never bother what other ppl said, they are just so pathetic with their meaningless life to poke fun at ppl's way of speaking.
johnny tai
October 5, 2008 at 1:16 am
Ooo…not bad. I learned the same way too actually. Through Televisyen & by reading books…it helps alot.But because of American channels, I somehow already adopted the american accent >.< (but not very much lah).But yeah…you should get a distinction for that =)
Jade Z
October 5, 2008 at 3:27 am
dear racoon, why so cham wann? lol~ then mai kesian those who can already speak English properly loh? =/
dear chessgal, finally i hear from u agen. (: well, my Chinese name means happy, beautiful Jade, and Tey is read as "Zheng" in Mandarin. ^^
dear johnny tai, i did. for G-CEO also. hehe! well yea, too much of anything is not good aint it?
)
bernard
October 5, 2008 at 4:01 am
i have just been following your blog lately. i see another point of it beside speaking english. From your entry, you mentioned about people critise without knowing that they cant do the same thing or job well. It actually sent a message to me that i should not critise people (if i happened to do that) and be happy with everyone. thanks.
anyway, i spent quite a while to write perfect english LA. haha.
anonymous1
October 5, 2008 at 8:35 am
well i c someone or something made you mad.
Simon Seow
October 5, 2008 at 9:47 am
kekeke Good die.
Frederick Loh
October 5, 2008 at 9:59 am
You're definitely right! I like the part when you say "nobody has to have good english in order to blog"
:)
KH
October 5, 2008 at 3:27 pm
ermm.. dont care about them la, cause whenever u angry thier goals has achived. im also a uni student study at melbourne also =P
Steven
October 5, 2008 at 4:41 pm
Hey, I have been reading your blog since the MDG but didn't leave you any comment before. But hey! You know what? I found out that this is the best post that I have read so far. I like your tone while writing and also the way you express your thoughts in this post. It's so straight forward and honest.
Yea, you can call me crazy saying that this is the post when you have much more other posts with those beautiful pictures of yours.
But then, who can criticize me for my own taste and opinions? Am I right, Cindy?=)
Alex
October 5, 2008 at 5:21 pm
I think there's but one language to consider people are good in this world, the language of the heart, and whatever you use, either speak or write to express yourself — others should not criticize and just do their own thing unless otherwise they have nothing better to do in their lives except attending on other people's lives without looking at their own stupid mistakes. I think you're doing pretty well, so don't let others get into you. One word for it they're just "JEALOUS"
Keep on blogging! I think you look great in pink!
ahlost
October 6, 2008 at 12:51 am
Ignore those who said that !! They eat too free nth to do I guess
Vanquish
October 6, 2008 at 2:27 am
Ok ok. You got me. My balls are as big as my brains. Happy? hehehe
Jade Z
October 6, 2008 at 3:40 am
dear bernard, i'm sure u r too kind to go around criticizing ppl. ^^
dear anonymous1, someone certainly did. hahaha…
hey Simon Seow, what Good die??? =/
dear Frederick Loh (i like your FRE lol), smileysmiley back to yoU! yay~ we r here to learn n improve, not stay static like a rock!
dear KH, thank you for this reminder. how's Melbourne?
dear dear Steven, i am very. glad. u like this post. its just what i really really (X1000 REALLY) think. i'm so happy u agree with these thoughts. & yes, no one can or should criticize one's taste too!!! i think i left that one; good point, Steven!
dear Alex, is this the 1st time i c u ere? well, welcome! hehe.. with the rest of the other thank yousss, sincerely kamshahamida from me & my pink bloggie~ *yay!*
dear ahlost, people are not free, people just don't mind wasting time. that's the problem. agree onot?
dear Vanquish, not happy. )))= itu ditujukan kepada mrk yang bolanya takde kulit marh… not you also. )=
KH
October 6, 2008 at 4:07 am
Melbourne is cold and hot at times haha, freaking lots of assignment to do and exam is coming. Damn!!
ophelia
October 6, 2008 at 4:25 am
I have lived in America for four years. I have to put on my American accent to speak to these people every freaking day, sometimes i feel like the accent has become a part of me. But when I speak to my friends back home in Malaysia, I don't pretend. I don't put on my that fake accent. I was born and I've been brought up for 17 years of my life back in Malaysia and a few measly years of living abroad is not gonna change that in you. So don't be so cocky. For all I know, you may be a really nice and pleasant person in real life and I'm not bias against you whatsoever but yea, don't be so cocky, woman.
Zi Sheng
October 6, 2008 at 7:56 am
Hey there. Certain Malaysians are just unable to accept Malaysians who speaks good English. & whenever you speak with an accent, you will automatically be categorized under the "lansi" category. They would say that you speak with such an accent just to impress. Never mind those critics, we have to learn how to live through these malicious comments. I am also a student in Australia, we have open up our minds and embrace new cultures as we spend our time with the locals in Australia. Nevertheless, it is very important to remain unscathed from these events.
Simon Seow
October 6, 2008 at 9:04 am
Well, Australian say Good Day like Good Die.
Adeline
October 6, 2008 at 9:12 am
well written post!! I can't help but to comment when i saw the part about the australian accent!!
I got that comment heaps when I first came back after studying in Sydney for a year. The fact that I barely speak to Malaysian during my whole year @ uni, and the fact that i am so sick of trying to explain twice/thrice to people just so they would be able to understand what i was saying, I begin to speak with that accent.
I so agree with zisheng about certain malaysians having problem accepting malaysians who could speak proper english and they think u are snobbish!!
I totally understand how you feel about people thinking that you fake that accent when u are just merely getting use to the culture and the accent.
btw, nice pictures u have there.:D
Jade Z
October 6, 2008 at 9:26 am
KH: i think it's still better than working. i miss Melbourne; that's y i asked. )=
dear ophelia, i don't put on an accent to fake it. cuz i can't even differentiate em. & mixin em' up is just gonna make me sound stupid. i don't even know what accent ppl said i was using; but so far, i feel exactly like i'm forcing myself to maximize the use of lahs to 'look home', & it simply just don't feel 'healthy'. (:
dear zi sheng, automatically pink-labeled as cocky, see?? lolx! jk lah. "open up our minds and embrace new cultures" -why never i thought of writing it this way!? good, good! ;D
dear Simon SEOW! this was what you MEANT izzit~~~ hahaha!!! *good one good one, silly boiii~!*
my dear Adeline, reading your comment made me feel 'home' & accepted. thank you! (((: it also made me realized that mayyybe ONLY people who went overseas & experienced some culture-shock, (& not jeles jeles) will understand all this so-called "snobbish" accent shit thingy issues. well anyway, glad to hear from u, girl. ^^
Jade Z
October 6, 2008 at 9:32 am
OH. & by the way, Zi Sheng N Adeline. i personally HEART your blogs VERY MUCH! so i'm gonna link ya, MAATTEESSS~! hahaha… Thanks 4 droppin' by.
& EVERYONE, please do put in your link if u have a blog? would love to hop around seeing beautiful lives you peeps are living~
See ya'll next post!
))
Zi Sheng
October 6, 2008 at 10:46 am
haha awesome. alright, i'm going to link you too
me myself had been put into such a situation before, maybe not as serious as yours. cheer up and just live on ur normal live and secretly hoping that these people will get a life. ahahha
Adeline
October 6, 2008 at 11:05 am
Thanks MATEEE ( lol)!!! I am impressed by your speed.
I left a comment,updated my blog,check my email and received your reply! LOL.
Dw, I totally feel you when I read your post!! Cos I have went through the EXACT same situation as you, except I havent been on TV.lol
Screw those people without a life and continue your style. Continue posting those shameless camwhoring pictures, cos I think camwhoring is a kind of art too.:DDD
Cheers!
Adeline
October 6, 2008 at 11:05 am
*Continue with your style
KH
October 6, 2008 at 11:14 am
HAHA, u are damn cute.. yeah i know is better then working but im going back to kl in like one and the half month more and im gonna work the hell out of me =P. but now at group mate house and popped by to say hi again mates
. by the way feel free to check my blog at my space is just some random blog only =P
jam
October 7, 2008 at 11:02 am
Got accent or not, as long as can be understood, should not be any problem!
YS
October 10, 2008 at 2:15 pm
Think about this..if one speaks with an accent (whatever it is as long as your Malaysian English doesn't sound like Malaysian), does that mean that the person is cocky?
Eg. Cindy speaks with OZ accent = Cocky
What if a Chinese speaks with an Indian accent? – Ada cocky ka?
why are we stereotyping those with accent.?
My point is..YES there are people that put up an accent and there are those that just got used to it. We are in no place to judge this people until we get to know them personally.
ALWAYS give a person a chance to proof himself/herself
Cheers people!!! Over and Out!